Breaking away or down

* breaking away or down *
Breaking away always seemed
More like breaking down
The tears and vale of death
Heart shrinking hurt
Feelings of being in debt
When merely sharing
Life's events to the now
Trying not to be crying
In public places raw
Fear you will howl
A Ginsberg frustrated howl
Sure you are the loser
Battered and worn
From best things in life being torn
Deluded more than just once
Unsure what is delusions
What is the truth you can touch
Were you too sheltered
Too exposed loved too much
A pawn for others feeling
Never owned your time enough
Or were you a stickler
for what you did want
Accused of not giving
Being cold to the touch
Who ever declared you should be
Whatever they want you to be
The wheat in the field
May bend at the breeze
Yet it is still wheat
And always will be
How come it seems
Growing up is being harvested
Ripped from the ground
Thrashed and threshed till you are raw
Evey emotion quivering
A seed so alone
Surrounded by so many
In same place as you
Wondering if tomorrow
Dawn will capture them
Sharing and caring
The hollywood sweet sap
Of the perfect lived life
For now wondering why
Breaking away feels like failure
And all of your living
Seems to be a case of breakdown.