numbed

+* numbed *+
This quiet and desperate despair
Death adder in my heart
Poison darkly seeps and spreads
Inescapable and unavoidable
Throws world external into dullness
Blunts all joy and laughter
Submerged drowning in a fog of shadows
Exiled from my friends and family
My hands so clumsy if I reach out
Spoiling all I touch
As if the poison is not within but of
Of me and completely formed
A poison poisonous to brighter life
A despair or thunder cloud
Intruding upon every other life
Simple tasks become insurmountable
Weather is to harsh and I too brittle
Cold or heat or wind or shine fracture me
Leave me beaten and bruised
Bleeding internally till I collapse
Consumed by this poisonous blight
Living daily in numbed darkest life.