Candice

* Candice *
Looking out not looking in
Always losing never win
Your two and two does not equate
Four winning is never to be your fate
Close your eyes to try and escape
Your heart is bruised and lips scrape
Raw as liver coarse as broken glass
They assured these times would pass
Seems forever without a friend
Lonely vigil without an end
Seeing others find their loving one
Skews your spirit brings you undone
Is no anaesthetic for this pain
Constant movement for no gain
You hear Capt Oates words with a black smile
Just stepping out might be a while
The rented rooms you tidy keep
Return each night alone to sleep
Some can survive these lonely nights
Without television on and all the lights
A blaze of global warming is your place
The lights radio and tv allow you grace
As if another human presence there
A reason for wearing lipstick and doing your hair
Becomes so any human interaction almost too much too bear
Your heart is lost and so deeply cares
Answers all lost in life's haze
No escaping Time's mighty blaze
Looking out not looking in
Seems predestined to never win.